Obsessed

I've just been notified that my weight is singing to me LOUD AND CLEAR and everyone hears it!

**Insert HARD eye roll here**

Lord knows, I've self proclaimed that I've got issues with my weight... no, I'm not ok with it, but it is what it is.

Well... today my husband pointed out that I'm OVERLY obsessed. Then to follow that, one of my best friends said so too. Hmmm... that makes me think some. What exactly is OVERLY? I'm very determined to be down to a certain side, but I'd like to think I'm still healthy. My mother struggled with obesity her entire life, it's in my genes. I'm not one of those people that can eat whatever I want. If I smell something with too high a fat concentration, then I pack on twice the caloric count. I'm aware of this, which makes me congnizant of what I can and cant eat. So, I limit my daily intake to roughly 1,000 calories. Burn off 2,000. Net result is weight loss.

Well another thing that my friend pointed out was that it was an obvious obsession by those who know me. Hmmm... that makes me think some more. So what does that mean? I dont want to be perceived as someone with an eating disorder. (it's such a fine line I'm walking, and I try hard not to cross it) I DO eat... I just dont over eat. And I'm just aware of what I eat. I can also easily picture my body with an increase of just one pound, and that will immediately make me rethink the option of lunch vs soup and peanut butter. UGH.... This sucks. Maybe there are just some things I should keep to myself going forward.