Day 8

From this so called journey I've found myself on, I'm discovering more and more. Mainly about me than others. The lesson over the last couple of days is that I put way too much control of my happiness into the hands of other people. That can't always be a good thing unfortunately. Don't get me wrong, I'd never trade in the joy I feel from other people smiling for a thing in the world. Something triggers in me where my whole day can be changed when I hear good news. On the flip side, I can easily be devastated when someone hurts me. Or even just does something hurtful. I take offense to many things and struggle with understanding why people don't share my sentiments. I do understand that you must look out for yourself but I just don't understand the whole idea of being self serving. I mean, to a certain extent I am self serving but only to a certain extent. I couldn't imagine knowingly or unknowingly ignoring someone else's feelings because of what j want or think I need. Some days I want to be in the heads of those like that... Just to try to get it. But to be have a heart of ice... I don't think I ever want to experience that.